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Meghan McCainis looking back on her experience with pregnancy loss.

“The only thing that gives me peace and solace… I feel like that child is with my dad in the afterlife or in heaven. And for whatever reason, it wasn’t meant to be here at that time,” she explains. “But it’s very hard.”

“I found it debilitating. I found it mentally, emotionally, physically debilitating,” McCain adds of her miscarriage, which she first publicly revealed in aNew York Timesop-ed in July 2019. “I found the process of having a miscarriage, like the physical process of it, grueling. And then having to have a D&C afterward, horrific.”

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McCain, who now is mom to 15-month-old daughterLiberty Sagewith husband Ben Domenech, shared in theNYTop-ed that she had been pregnant with a daughter but subsequentlysuffered a miscarriage. She called the loss a “horrendous experience” at the time, adding that she “would not wish it upon anyone.”

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source: people.com