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Gwyneth Paltrowis explaining why she experienced an “identity crisis” after she won anAcademy Award.
During the actress' appearance on the latest episode of theCall Her Daddypodcast on Tuesday, Paltrow, 50, recalled the “disorienting” attention placed on her after she won an Oscar for Best Actress in 1999 for her performance in 1998’sShakespeare in Love.
“I just wanted to be successful and to be well-regarded. I was on this kind of on this really fast track and it all happened so quickly, which is what I think you’re alluding to,” Paltrow said. “For somebody like me, who I think I was working through a lot of the harder parts of my growing up through achieving success.”
“Once I won the Oscar, it put me into a little bit of an identity crisis, because if you win the biggest prize, like what are you supposed to do?” she continued. “And where are you supposed to go? It was hard, like, the amount of attention that you receive on a night like that and the weeks following is so disorienting and frankly, really unhealthy.”
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The actress also recounted news media’s reaction to her acceptance speech at that year’s Oscars ceremony, during which sheteared up while thanking her parents, actressBlythe Dannerand director-producerBruce Paltrow. Bruce, whodied at 58 in 2002, was suffering from a throat cancer diagnosis at the time of Gwyneth’s Academy Award win; the actress said during the podcast that her grandfather was also suffering from cancer at the time.
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“I felt a real pivot on that night, because I felt like up until that moment everybody was kind of rooting for me in a way,” Paltrow said. “And then when I won, it was like too much, and I could feel a real turn.”
“I remember the British press being so horrible to me because I cried,” she added. “They didn’t necessarily know that my grandfather was dying of cancer, my dad who was in the audience with me had had all this crazy cancer treatment and he was really debilitated. It was just this totally overwhelming moment, and, you know, I was 26.”
“I cried and people were so mean about it and I just thought, ‘Wow, there’s this big energy shift that’s happening,’ " Gwyneth recalled. “I think I’m going to have to learn to be less openhearted and much more protective of myself and filter people out better.' It was like this big reckoning, in a way.”
Elsewhere during theCall Her Daddyappearance, Gwyneth gotcandid about her past relationships, including herromancewith her ex-fiancéBrad Pittand her timedatingBen Affleck.
source: people.com
